600 days

Thoughts I want my friends to be happy as the people I spend time with have a great impact on my mood as well. For instance I met my friend N this evening and she was a bit upset and I feel like somehow it mad me a bit upset. But later on as we sat together and talked we played some game and she laughed and that made me feel better as well. Which people make me happy? Are the people that I am trying to put an effort to make them happy, doing the same for me? My friend J gifted me a plant. This is nice of her.  Should an effort be made to understand people?  To know what they want? Or is it a futile process. As seldom we understand ourselves. On the other hand, would be selfish, not to understand them? not to gauge their emotions? The motive would matter, I presume.  Positives: I exercised.  I tried to reach the target study that I set for myself. I met my friends for some time and it relaxed me.  I wrote this diary, as this is part of getting disciplined.  ...

 Yesterday was the first day of what I named '600 days' of change.  I had this thought at midnight of 3rd December that something has to change about how I live my days and nights. This is not the first time I have had this thought. I have had similar realisations previously, and some have lead to action and change. Few of them worked. What is different about this time is: 1-This time I have decided to set a long term change goal that is in 600 days.  2-I will keep a diary of my life as it evolves It is clear to me that I lack accountability in life. I have a number good friends and a caring family. However, I noticed that no matter how good my friends and family are they can never hold me accountable for my actions, as me myself can. Friends in my observation will always unconditionally support you. This support comes with a drawback. A wise man once said "If you are happy doing nothing in someone's company, know that they are your true friend". Doing nothing and...