Day 1 scattered thoughts 4th December 2023

 Yesterday was the first day of what I named '600 days' of change. 

I had this thought at midnight of 3rd December that something has to change about how I live my days and nights. This is not the first time I have had this thought. I have had similar realisations previously, and some have lead to action and change. Few of them worked. What is different about this time is:

1-This time I have decided to set a long term change goal that is in 600 days. 

2-I will keep a diary of my life as it evolves

It is clear to me that I lack accountability in life. I have a number good friends and a caring family. However, I noticed that no matter how good my friends and family are they can never hold me accountable for my actions, as me myself can. Friends in my observation will always unconditionally support you. This support comes with a drawback. A wise man once said "If you are happy doing nothing in someone's company, know that they are your true friend". Doing nothing and happiness seem like a contradiction to me. I want achieve my goals in the next 600 days. And that can not be achieved with doing nothing, but with disciplined and well thought actions. The support that friends give you is without judgement and prejudice. They accept you as your are. And once someone accepts you as you are, it means there is no need to change. 

I will hold myself accountable for my own actions. I will set my own goals and achieve them. I will evaluate my life, learn from my mistakes and improve.

The positives from yesterday:

I went to the gym. The weather was terrible. It was cold and rainy, but I went. I want to physically fit and strong. I will continue this motivation and discipline. I will keep eating healthy and keep exercising. This will be me. Someone who eats healthy and exercises. 

I set a small target for myself to write at least 200 words of my research work and I did it. It was not a lot of work but if I keep repeating it, in 600 days I will write more than a 100 thousand. 

I wrote this blog for myself. This is something I promised myself and I did it. I will keep acting on the promises that I make myself.

Negatives from yesterday: 

I slept late. I will change this.